Chronic Illness + College = Failure :-(

lilacbutterfly
Tue, 29 Nov 2011 03:01:55 +0000

I’m a freshmen and loving my university, it 's great, the people are wonderful, and I’ve been blessed and showered with so many opportunities through committees, academic clubs and such. I’m typically a quite decent student and along side that I love my academic clubs, volunteering and all that, however, things have been pretty rough lately. I have a chronic illness and it just seems to be getting worse. While I’ve had and still have all of these blessings and so much goodness coming my way, it almost appears as if it’s been ruined simply by my inability to do anything justice. I’m so tired and am having a difficult time eating (I end up with awful stomach pain, dizziness, swelling, and extreme fatigue, thus making it difficulty for me to be productive with my workload and to stay focused in lectures. I’ve been to the doctor and all that, but there’s nothing they can do for me. I’m having such a hard time reading my textbooks and seeing pictures, diagrams and such (I see them, but can’t make anything of them) and remembering things… I’ll even forget my best friends names. I’ll study hours on end and review my notes after class, yet I still fail tests. It’s purely frustrating and I now feel like I’m never going to get anywhere. I went full time for my first semester and now I’m going part time for the second, yet my grades are worse than the first semester.