Confused and Worried still

Cvjn
Mon, 19 Mar 2007 02:09:04 +0000

Hello again bluedevilmike! It’s good to see you again.

I think I’d honestly enjoy medicine more. While I know that ethics plays a big role in medicine as well, something about me just is wired to think that business ethics are… well, just more or less “malicious” than medicine ethics. While that may be true or not, it’s just how I think right now, which I honestly don’t know why.

As I’ve said before, I’ve always wanted to help people, so that’s a huge thing. And while money now isn’t gonna be the biggest factor, I’d like to live a comfortable life that I can support my family (possibly wife and kids). That’s something I shouldn’t really worry about since both provide a pretty good income.

I’ve had many chats with a friend of mine at Notre Dame that’s doing their pre med program there. She and I both have a very strong moral standard, and strongly oppose a lot of what’s wrong in the field. I may sound hypocritical and possibly naive, but I hope, if I do go into the field, to never be one of those doctors. The thought of it alone just bugs me. You’re in the field to help people, not make money.

My biggest concern, would still have to be my inability to measure up to other med students. It’s no secret that pre med students are some of the best on any campus. And while I’m sure in competition, I’ll be able to put in just as much time as everyone else, I’m extremely worried if I don’t have a natural affinity for it.

It really stems from that in classes like Honors Biology, I’d never study, but still get a respectable B in the class. But in AP Chemistry, while not studying, I’d go down to a C range. I guess it’s just that I’ve never really applied myself, that I’m not sure how far I’ll be behind. That part also slightly scares me, being behind and how much behind I will be. It’s so daunting that the pre med majors that I know, have wanted to be in medicine and working towards it since their middle school years, while I’m kinda making a rash decision.

The big thing about not doing say General Chemistry right away, is that I’ve heard to get into med school, you should take the MCATs one year before you get into med school, so that should be somewhere around Junior/Senior year. If I don’t finish my pre-reqs, will I be really prepared for the MCATs? Can I really afford to not really but “waste” a semester in taking a class that while will go towards my requirements, will make me further behind in terms of preparing for the MCATs.

Sorry for the long posts >_>