Definition of cheating in a BF/GF relationship

Christine123
Thu, 07 Aug 2008 10:33:01 +0000

Honestly, I do blame her a little bit. She’s normal enough so that she’d know I’d have a problem with the situation. She’s also a girl, so she probably (not stereotyping) knew she’d be upset with the situation. Yet, and she told me this, she begged my boyfriend to live with her the next year when she found out he was staying an extra year (he was originally planning on graduating early). And they were both excited about it. I guess the thing was I was incredibly depressed about the situation, and I really wanted it to change. And I really wish it did at that point because, believe me, I haven’t ever felt that depressed for a whole semester (I’d cried twice in the years before that…and for some reason I resorted to daily crying…maybe I’m going through menopause or something.) No excuses, though, right?

Okay, fine, I’m unfair. I am selfish. I’ll admit. I’ve actually never felt like such a bad person in my life before this situation, really (and I the same time I need to get out of the habit of saying I’m a bad person). My boyfriend was excited about living with this girl, and he thinks I should respect him wanting to live with her. I don’t know what’s more important, my feelings being hurt or him being happy. But goodness, I can’t help it but really wish this didn’t happen to me.

Sigh. I know religion isn’t really popular at this day and age, but I did pray that I’d come to love her last night. (I really love people…and I can’t stand having such negative thoughts about someone. But I will admit, the prayer felt like it was killing my insides.)