disappointment and disillusionment

sweetdream
Sun, 02 Jul 2006 01:16:04 +0000

this is a chapter of my life that I actually regret and want to have a chance to do it over again. Today I got my report card and I almost broke down and cry. My grades drop unexpectedly, 2 Bs and a C(I know this is not something that everyone on CC can relate to). I guess it was my fault that I slack off during the second semester. I underestimated my classes especially the APs one and procastinate a lot. Suddenly I realize that all my dreams came to an end. Before this I always have this arrogant air about me. I actually don’t show it but I pretended to sympathize with people when they complain about their bad grades while I knew in my head that I’m safe and (better than them). I feel ashamed of myself. I had planned to apply to UCLA. It might be a reach but I have a big hope that I will get in. So now the truth dawn on me that even UCI might be my reach now. I disappointed not only myself but also my parents who had so much hope in me. When it comes to this I really need some advices from you guys although I know that probably noone in here had experience something like this. Is there any way that I can make it up or explain this stupid mistake to the college administration? Will this really affect my rank or my GPA? Is my life really over and I have no hope to get into UC? Thank so much for reading this thread.