Failures of a Second Year ChE Student

iwfmm2018
Thu, 24 Dec 2015 09:18:26 +0000

Hey guys, I am a sophomore at a public university. First first semester of college went well, with all decent grades despite much effort. Second semester, I ended up failing both Chemistry || and my Engineering course (I thought it was a great idea to skip the finals because I already had given up in the classes). My Fall 2015 semester did not go any better. Though grades have not been published yet, I am most likely recieving D+s in Calculus |||, Chemistry || (which I had retaken, mind you), Biology |, and an F in Physics || (I never put any effort in this course from the start.)

I am stuck. I was depressed last semester, and thought that I had gotten better over the summer and would come back as a sohpomore with new habits. The beggining of this Fall 2015 semester went great, but only after about three weeks life got heavy again and I lost control.

I am sick of dissapointing myself, because recieving a degree in Chemical Engineering has been a goal of mine for the past five years. I have always had an interest in polymer science and the materials testing done in the footwear and prostetics industry, but I just can’t bring myself to actually sit down and focus on my work. This is a situation that is getting worse and worse, but I never really reached out to anyone at my university to fix this problem before it got bigger.

Basically, I am a smart kid who is making some really bad choices for their future. The course material is not too much for me, as I was once a kid who would spend hours on end researching scientific topics, but slipping in and out of depression has been stopping me from being the person I used to be. I don’t really know how to speak about it, so that is why I am coming here first for help.

Does anyone else have any advice on the topic? The easiest way to describe how I am feeling is that there is a wall standing between me and my dreams, and rather than just climb it, the back of my mind is telling me that the wall is impossible to climb.

I have contacted my math professor from this semester, and am waiting to hear back from my chemistry professor about taking this course for a third time.

I know this is the right road for me, I just need to refuel this engine of mine and keep on traveling along.