Feeling like I don't belong at this college

jayhan
Thu, 30 Sep 2010 21:04:54 +0000

I got accepted to one of the first tier UC schools with a 4.15 gpa and 1800 SAT, very few EC’s and leadership, and a very decent essay. I was extremely shocked when I got my acceptance letter because most of my peers with higher gpa’s and sat scores didn’t even get in. I’m pretty sure I got in because I’m first gen, parents didn’t go to college, low income, and with a not so competitive major.

At first, I was ecstatic to attend such a prestigious university, but now that school actually started I’m kind of getting the feeling that I should never have gotten accepted into the school in the first place. It feels like everyone here is so much smarter and actually deserved to get accepted, and I just basically got lucky. After a few days at this school, I’m beginning to wonder if I would be better off going to UCI or UCR even. There would probably be more people on my intelligence level and I would probably “fit in” better.

As of now, I have absolutely no friends… my roommates aren’t really the type of people I hang out with either. Come to think of it, I never really hung out with such studious and goal-driven people in high school. I usually hung out with the laid back and dgaf kids. I’m beginning to think that maybe I don’t belong at this school. I’m not saying that I’m not as studious or goal-driven… I actually do portray these qualities, but I’ve always grown up and been more comfortable around kids who are more laidback with their education.

I also have to add that I’m a pretty shy and reserved person in general usually with people I don’t really know, but with people I know or get to know, I can be very outgoing and talkative. I don’t know if this is what’s keeping me from feeling like I don’t belong at this school or if I actually am better off going to a school with more students who are “my type” I guess. The reason why I’m writing this post is this loneliness and thoughts of not belonging here are getting to me… almost giving me some minor depression.

So what do you guys think? Would it be better for me to learn to adapt and cope with such different people and environment, or would I be better off to transfer to a school where I feel like I belong? I don’t want to make a stupid, rash mistake without giving anything a try.

Also, I wanted to know… is it possible to transfer from a UC to another lower tier UC? like Irvine or Riverside?