Freaking out! I think all colleges will reject me

thezealot
Sun, 15 Feb 2015 17:02:06 +0000

So, I was hoping to get at least 2100 in my Jan SAT (last chance for me). I was confident that I was going to get at least 2050+ and hence focused 100% into US admissions neglecting any backup plans.

I just got my SAT scores and found out that I only got 1920. I am so screwed. I’ve applied to 21 colleges, from the top to the bottom. I need full-aid financial aid (cannot pay more than $3000). I rank in the top 6% of my school. I have international recognision awards and have come on TV. But one of the colleges will see this because of course, the adcoms don’t look over all the applications. The clerks who don’t care will just weed out and throw the applications straight to the dustbin which have a shitty SAT like I do.

Im just so freaked out because I know that I have a 0.000001% chance of getting admitted.

If I’m rejected, I’ll let my parents down. I’ll let all the money spent on AP tests, application fees, SAT fees etc. ($1000) go to waste. I’ll let MYSELF down. I’ll have no face to show to my friends. My friends to whom I told I was applying abroad. They all will see me as a failure. Imagine how much I’ll let down my mentors who put in days and days of their precious time to edit my college essays and sacrificed their work for me. I have no option in my home country as I didn’t give JEE. I have only one option… to study BSC in an Indian college and hate my life while at it. I’ll probably drop out.

Should I stop freaking out or should I continue?