help me make friends haha

ahospital
Tue, 22 Feb 2011 03:57:57 +0000

@quomodo
I have a lot of classes with old friends that I can probably approach if I felt relaxed. I just seem withdrawn to other people I think. I also eat lunch in detention when i don’t even have detention haha. I talk to people there occationally.

i have been trying to get a shrink for a while but my parents have been putting it off for a long time now. i saw a few shrinks two years ago, but both of them wern’t very good. i know there is good ones though. and, my school consoler does not like me and is very hostile towards me. during my sophmore year, i was insulting towards her or something along the lines of that.

I accept rough patches as i have had a life of normal ups and downs untill age 15. this rough patch right now has been 3 years long… And in my youth where I should be having the time of my life.

@121314
i need a job to pay for college, but i want to try to smoke weed to calm me down. if it is true most jobs don’t screen you for drugs, that is great. and, i’ve tried the inspirational thing, but those resolutions/positive thinking keep falling aprart within a week because a new truama or resalization comes along and breaks me. so, i don’t make much progress. but i guess i’ll try the inspirational resolution idea out again. it takes so much energy to build it up and it like breaks my spirit so badly when it gets destroyed by something aha.

@enfieldacademy

i’m on ad/hd pills that my doctor said will help. it is mainly supposed to help with concentration, because i have concentration problems, but it also helps with anxiety.

drinking soda and eating whatever i want actually makes me feel a little better. i still eat moderately healthy overall and take vitamins daily. i was on a strict died for almost a year because i thought that was my problem, but it actually just made me more up tight and wound up.

but ty all for helping me with my problem, i am taking in consideration to what everyone is saying. i know that i’m ranting badly but i’m so sick and tired of being lonely so i’m like pulling all of these stops.