help me make friends haha

ahospital
Tue, 22 Feb 2011 02:04:09 +0000

I’m 18 and a senior in high school. I can never relax enough to feel like socializing. The only way I can feel socially able is if I drink some alcohol (which is hard to get for me and I am running out as of now) in the morning, which gets me mildly tipsy, and then follow it with a red bull. Then, during that high, I can be confident and sociable. Otherwise, I am neurotic, nervous, and depressive.

My life is a little hard. My parents are still in the process of getting a divorce after 4 years, I don’t know how I’m going to pay for college, and my dreams of getting into a top school are gone because of bad grades during my first two years of high school. I know I can go to community college/state college, study hard, and then transfer to a decent college/university after two years, but this still stresses me out. And there’s the money factor.

Even though I have some woes, I feel like I should still be able to be sociable. I want someone to talk to so bad. I want to go out to parties like the rest of my peers. Anybody have a stressful life but still manages to be social? My next idea is to take up smoking weed to chill me out a little. That costs money though and will create more obstacles for me as I will have to cheat my drug tests for jobs which seems to take a lot of time…

Anyway please read this and give me some advise I am so lonely…

btw I have had friends in the past, but I have lost touch with basically all of them after my freshman year of high school.