homesick freshman

freshman1990
Thu, 15 Jan 2009 19:40:35 +0000

It’s the start of my second quarter of my freshman year and it isn’t going to well. Last quarter i was really homesick at first but I got over it quick and really began to love my school. I made friends with a handful of people really well. We all hung out together all the time and they are great friends. But, other than them I haven’t made a lot of friends. It’s weird that i feel this way because I loved my school so much last quarter that I didn’t want to go home for winter break and I thought that my second semester would be great. I thought, now I’m used to college level classes and have friends and the room to myself since my roomie didn’t come back, this will be awesome. But it hasn’t. It feels like all the newness from college has worn of and now I’m really homesick. I am also getting tired of my friends. Since I hang out with them so much they tend to get on my nerves. We have meet some new people but this quarter is just different. It is colder and as I said all the newness seems to have worn off. We are going to more parties, which is both a bad and good thing. I love going to parties and they are a great way to meet people. I guess it’s just that I’m really close to my family. I actually like to hang out with my parents. I know it sounds lame. I didn’t have a whole lot of friends in high school and I’m kind of a homebody so I really liked to stay in some nights and just watch a movie with my family. I still like to go out on the weekends but I liked my time at home as well. I am shy and hate to talk about my feelings. I am really close with my mom and feel like she is the only one I am comfortable talking to about this sort of thing. I just really want to be home right now. Because I have been depressed about all of this lately and partly because I have ADHD, I have been having a harder time this quarter motivating my self to do my work. Last quarter I got a 4.0 and really want to do it again, but it is so hard to focus when I feel like this. Last quarter me and my group of friends would just hang out and watch tv some nights. I just like a mix between the two. I guess part of it is that I have always found relationships to be a lot of work. I always know where I stand with my family. I just liked to have a break from my friends in high school. I’d go to school and then come home and relax. It was a nice mix, but I find it really hard to be around my friends all the time.