How can i make myself happy?

Arethriel
Sun, 25 Jan 2009 22:18:13 +0000

I’ve always been a firm believer in the idea that you can make yourself happy, but I’m starting to believe I can’t.

I was accepted into my dream school (the only school I’ve ever really wanted to get into). I got my roommate and everything, but when the financial aid office called me, I realized it wasn’t realistic to go there especially if I’m planning on doing medschool. So I figured, undergrad doesn’t really matter anyway so I went to my safety school. It’s a private school and though it’s technically more expensive, they’re private and able to give me a lot more money for my excellent grades.

Dream school:

Large (22,000 kids), beautiful environment (city), marching band (yes I’m that big of a nerd), I’ve visited nearly every weekend for the past 2 years (friends go there, so now it feels like home), doesnt have an official pre-med program, $30,000 a year

My school:

Small (1,500 kids), trains go by every 30 min LOUD and clear, theater major school (nothing really against them, but they look at things differently than I do), has a neuroscience program (I want to major in it), $5,000 a year down from $40,000 because of my academics, supposed to be a great academic school

Thing is I hate it here. The environment is atrocious, everything is disgusting and I hate the people. I never had to deal with drama before and I can’t handle the two-facing and the drama queens! People spend so much time trying to be different, but when someone is, they freak out on them. I can’t toss a ball around with anybody and I’m finding the words, “I’m watching my figure” coming from a man normal. I don’t have much against drinking & getting high, but that’s not my thing.

It’s only 4 years of my life though, right? I just need a degree and get into med-school. But the thing is, how can I make it better? I’m in clubs, but they’re the same people, same environment. I’m sick of kids trying to be “cool” and looking for some down-to-earth fun kids!

I need good academics, which is supposed to be here but I’m using the same books as high school (my HS was pretty good). The only school I want is my “dream school” but that’s not $$ reasonable. How can I survive it here? How can I get out of this stupid depression?

Someone please help …