How is Everyone Holding Up?

kjofkw
Sun, 12 Aug 2007 17:41:39 +0000

Can’t stand it! Three days.

It reminds me of visiting distant family. The last day is always spent just “waiting” (for the inevitable departure, whether by plane, train, car, etc.). And usually, you can hear every clock chime or tick as you’re waiting.

DH is reminding me: “Today is our last Saturday w/ her” “Today is our last Sunday with her.” Of course it isn’t…but he means it as our last days w/ her in the family nest. He does the same thing on vacations: “We only have 3 days left” etc. Obviously he is grieving as well. I asked him several days ago, how he felt, and his response is that it made him afraid, because he knows what it is signaling (getting older…etc.) AAUUGGHH!

I’m apprehensive. It is time for me to change things as well, but don’t have a plan in action yet. We’re looking for a new home to downsize. I’m going to start job hunting again and don’t have a clue what direction I want to take. I’ve been working part time, and need to consider more hours and more stability. I also want a BIG change from what I’m doing now.

I am crying a lot too – over little things. Oh wait…maybe that’s because of the big “M” !