I don't have a dream school......

xxblair
Mon, 29 Nov 2010 20:30:05 +0000

I did, however, apply ED to a college my parents loved since it was close to home, so I guess my life is kind of set if I do get in. I applied out of convenience though and not true passion, because I never really did have a single college in mind that I would be overwhelmingly happy to get into.

Am I the only one? Because when I see my friends gushing over the same college I ED, I can’t join in with their nervous excitement. I’m just… indifferent. Whether I get accepted, deferred or rejected, I don’t think of 12/15 as the day that my whole life depends on… it’s just a day that decides whether or not I’ll have more college applications to complete.

Somehow I feel like I’m missing out on the college process-- like that adrenaline rush of anxiety from wondering if I’ll get in or not. And it’s slightly disheartening to know that I won’t be able to jump for joy or bawl my eyes out on 12/15. I want to be able to celebrate and burn all my SAT books or cry and eat a tub of Ben and Jerry’s on D-Day… but whatever happens, I don’t see myself showing any emotion whatsoever at getting into my “top choice” college.

I feel like I’m ranting… but does anyone else NOT have a dream school that they’re absolutely in love with?