I failed my first year of college

scorpion6915
Thu, 02 May 2019 07:01:42 +0000

I’m currently an undergrad student at a public university in the south. This is the end of my freshman year and I couldn’t feel worse. This year I dealt with anxiety and depression in a way that I never have experienced before. Because of it, I didn’t make any friends. Never went out. Never had fun. I failed two classes first semester, so I went into my second semester with only 6 credits to my name. I thought second semester would be better, over Christmas break I started feeling a lot better and more motivated, I had been receiving counseling so I was ready to go back. Little did I know that second semester would be the worse 5 months of my entire life. I had never felt so low. Everything around me was falling apart and I just couldn’t get it together, as much as I wanted to, I couldn’t. I let down my parents who are the best parents a girl could have. I’m now awaiting my final grades and I know for a fact I failed another 2 classes… as a result I will no longer receive financial aid since I was on the financial aid warning after first semester. I don’t know what I’m going to do, I don’t know how I’m going to pay for the next semester especially since I don’t qualify for any loans (which may be too personal idk) but the point is, I’m stuck, I’m hurt, and I’m disappointed in myself. I know I want to be in school and I know what I want to do as far as my career… I just couldn’t shake this… and now it’s affected the rest of my academic years… this isn’t me at all… I was an honors student in high school I never had issues like this before and it’s shocking to everybody in my life… mainly myself… I chose to write here to vent but also to hopefully come across somebody who may be experiencing/may have experienced the same thing…