I think i regret having my internship. What should i do?

Winningthepoop
Thu, 08 Nov 2018 04:39:30 +0000

So, i just graduated from college and this is my first internship abroad. This is going to be my second month already and i am supposed to finish 12 months. The company i am working in right now is pretty good they have good benefits and everything, but it’s just that i feel like the work is not suited for me. I am not happy with what i am doing and with my lifestyle here. I feel like i am starting to get depressed, i am having negative thoughts that i never had back home. I dread waking up to work, i count the days in the calendar every night before i go to bed, and i just feel like time is crawling very very slowly. I miss my family and my life back home so bad. I try to talk to my parents via facetime but they don’t understand how i feel, they don’t think believe i have anything to be depressed about. I do try my best to stay positive though and i always keep in mind that if i finish this i would make my parents proud and would learn a lot from this experience. However, i just keep having second thoughts at the back of my mind. I want to go back home so bad, i even talked to the hr manager about this. She told me i am free to go home in 3 months. I was so happy to hear this and was already considering it but i do not want to disappoint my parents, they have been very supportive about my decision to intern in the US and shouldered the finances for this program. I am also afraid of what the other people might say about me, i do not want my parents to be ashamed of me or hear others say that their child is a quitter. I feel so selfish thinking about quitting and not even doing at least half the number of months required but i feel like i would be happy if i do go home early. What do you think i should do?