I think I'm a failure...

ADad
Thu, 21 Aug 2008 14:21:20 +0000

I’ve called no less than twenty places



It sounds like you are determined to make progress.



I’m doing most of the work though



Good for you! What problem are preventing you from using any of those clinics?



I’m scared of what will happen if I think about it any further and try my hardest to block it



It seems too hard and too scary to just refuse to listen to the disturbing thoughts.

A “stranger” who is a licensed professional has skills and experience that can help you. Plus you can trust them completely (if you are fully comfortable with that particular person) and feel free to say whatever is on your mind, knowing that they definitely won’t try to use it against you later, take it personally, get upset, tell you that you are wrong, etc. Instead, they will offer you unconditional acceptance, accurate empathy, and genuineness. There is a lot to be said (imo) for working with a professional therapist. Keep up your determined search!

Have you decided about school and/or work for the fall?

Those points you mentioned do sound like things a good therapist would have. It sounds like you are able to be a good friend, too. Am I right about that?