I think I'm a failure...

ADad
Mon, 18 Aug 2008 01:14:20 +0000

I want to forget any of this has ever happened. It’s like a way to escape my memories. That’s probably a bad idea though, and you’re probably right that it would help me sort out my feelings and hopefully recover.



I agree that it would be a bad idea to try to forget what has happened. I think you are right to say that a journal, and imo therapy, will help you sort out your feelings, get past troublesome events, and move forward in a more healthy way.



I don’t want to feel like I’m getting watched



I agree that your personal information will remain confidential. But even so you feel that something is wrong with you, and others will sense that feeling and perhaps steer clear of you.

You can address that feeling of something being wrong with you in your therapy. If something happens at school that makes you feel as if someone is avoiding you, you can discuss the event in therapy.

You can also consider whether there might be alternatives explanations for what happened. If someone declines to eat with you one day, for example, consider whether they might be very busy; they might have a class soon; they might have a prior commitment; etc. Always think about alternative explanations; don’t jump to conclude that people are avoiding you.



I wish I could just have a normal life.



I believe that you can have a normal life, :), and I believe that it may take some work on your part to get to that place. Therapy can be hard work, and requires commitment. With the work and commitment, though, I believe that you have an excellent chance to move towards a life that you would want.

I’m glad that things are going better with your parents. Do they know pretty much everything, including about the troublesome thoughts you sometimes have? I am interested, too, that people have suggested being a therapist to you. What strengths of yours lead people to make that suggestion?