I wasn't sure where to post this...

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Mon, 19 May 2008 23:41:34 +0000

I have been desperately looking for advice but I don’t have anyone to talk to. I accidently clicked on my CC bookmark and thought that I might as well post here and get any advice I could get. Here’s my situation:

I’m 18 and a high school senior. I believe that I’m a pretty good kid. I have excellent grades, have never been in trouble at school, am going to my dream college next year. Basically, everything has gone pretty good in my life. I have never drank alcohol, I have never done drugs or smoked cigarettes, I have never partied before.

All of that might be changing. I went to Prom with this girl who was my friend. The thing is, she is the complete opposite of me. She parties a lot, she drinks, she does drugs. Things were kind of weird between us at Prom and to make a long story short, she and I haven’t talked since. I really want to talk to her but I know that she doesn’t want to talk to me. I hear from her friends that she didn’t really have a good time with me and now I’m extremely sad because I really like her and things are now weird between us.

Now I feel like the innocent, good natured, respectful part of me has died. I have never sweared in public for over 7 years and now the “s-word” and the “f-word” are half of my vocabulary. I am now tempted to drink and tempted to go out and party. I have lost the will to do anything. I don’t want to do homework, I don’t want to go out with my friends, I even have lost much of my appetite. Every time I go online and see her on, I just feel so sad. It’s a pain that I have never felt before. I don’t know why this suddenly happened but this is how I feel now.

I could really use some advice. Is there any way for things to be cool between me and my friend again? Is there any way that I can alleviate some of this pain that I am feeling? I don’t want to be the guy who drinks, does drugs, and puts his own life at risk but I just feel so tempted. Again, I could really use some advice here. Thanks and sorry for the long read.