I'm a student - I need some help...

bcarvings
Sun, 31 May 2009 15:55:17 +0000

I don’t need a therapist or a doctor. What I need is to get out and have some fun. I just spent the last two years trying taking care of my dad with constant life and death situations. Many people will go their entire lives and not have the intense stress that I have been through. During these past two years I’ve never went out socially once. Never really laughed much, and now don’t smile much.

Moving away and making friends WILL solve my (depression) problems. My problem is getting myself to move away and make friends, that is actually do what I need.

I don’t know why I’m posting on here. I know what I have to do, I’m just afraid it won’t work out.

I understand everyone here has different opinions, some of them are completely opposite, but I’m not asking on what I should do. I’m just asking how I should transfer. I think my question was answered really. A single dorm would probably be best for me.

I mean if I talk about my feelings, and for example when my dad died, in fact right after he died I couldn’t approach him (I was crying like a baby) and I kept asking my mom “please have a closed casket and don’t want to see him again, please I can’t see him”. Well my grandmother interuppted me and kepy saiying I think if you take some medication you’ll feel better. And kept saying that the whole night.

In the end we had an open-casket. I spent most of my dads last two years with him, in fact I was with him most of the time, but when I try to talk about my feelings people even here just seem to be unable to understand a solution and just say to seek help. Its not everyone’s fault, its just, well, what I’m getting at is I don’t think society has the resources to help me. What I need is much more simple then a highly paid doctor. I just need some love damnit, no medication, no therapist can give this to me. It has to come from a friend or family, and it must come sincerely.

I don’t think I have any more questions…
Thank you for those whom have responded with well-intentioned advice.