I'm tired of...

mrfairladyz
Sun, 20 Feb 2011 01:32:48 +0000

I just feel as though I’ve put in more effort than some of the people I know, and I don’t want to end up in the same place. It would kind of void my effort. Is that a horrible mindset?



Not at all, and I absolutely agree. I’ve been working my ass off for the past few years (and I will continue to do so) to get into the school of my dreams, or at least one similar.

One of my older friends has a sister who went to a Cal state school, and her parents are thinking of sending here there too, even though she’s put so much more effort into her education and can easily get into some UCs. It’s discouraging to see her efforts go to waste, and to know that she could have enjoyed her high school years and ended up in the same position is just depressing.

I’m not putting in all of this effort to go to the same school where the kids who don’t give a **** about college end up (not that CSULB is terrible, per se… I just hold myself to a higher standard) . If I knew I’d end up at CSULB, I would be half-assing all my work, cheating off of the smart kids, smoking weed, having sex/wasting time with girls, and actually getting some sleep - basically, I’d be a “normal” kid and enjoy myself, because I’d still end up in the same place as the nerd who never slept. The difference is, I have expectations of myself, and they require that I do more than the bare minimum to get by. I’m not living a stressful life now so I can get to the same place where the kids who don’t give a **** go.

I’m putting my heart into my education so that I end up in the places where all the brilliant people go, and that’s what anyone else who truly cares about education deserves. **** any counselors who discourage/doubt true achievement, and godspeed to those who work to prove them wrong.



I still can’t believe the counselors disallowed taking chemistry.



Ughhh. I could be in Physics Honors right now.