Just another student with doubts

crappyEngi
Sat, 29 Sep 2012 20:38:34 +0000

So i’ll make the backstory as brief as possible: Spent some time working after highschool, and am now in community college trying to get to a math level so I can get into an engineering program, while taking courses which are transferable for said program.

The problem is that i’m struggling pretty hard here, and I haven’t even made it out of community college yet! I’m taking 13 credits and working part time (although I put in a LOT of unpaid overtime…), and I already feel like I spend the entirety of my life working and studying. The scary thing is, for the amount of work I put into my classes, my grades aren’t really all that spectacular! The only two classes i’m getting As in are my “programming for engineers” course, and Algebra 2 (yeah, laugh it up!), and i’m only doing well in those courses because they’re things i’ve been doing for god knows how long already!

What’s also putting me off of this, is my job. I’m basically a technician, who gets a lot of “engineer” esque responsibilities from time to time. These guys figured out that i’m pretty decent behind a keyboard, and that I figured out all this CAD stuff pretty quickly, so they’ve got me designing and programming really basic stuff from time to time.

Now, I love what I do, don’t get me wrong, but there are a few key problems I see with doing it for the rest of my life. 1) I enjoy working with my hands and all, but i’m the guy who has to do something WRONG before he gets it right. No amount of obsessing and planning ever seems to prevent me from making some sort of mistake, and that seems like a BAD BAD thing for an engineer! 3) I’m not a people person. At all. I mean, I can be friendly and sycophantic, sure, but there’s this anxious bomb that goes off in my head the second I have to talk to somebody.

So it seems like the odds are against me here. I’'ve been doing these accelerated math courses (2 levels in 1 semester), but even then i’ve got at least another year of math before i’m at a level to be accepted into an engineering program, and i’m almost totally convinced at this point that i’m just too stupid for this ****.

Sorry, long winded post which doesn’t really ask a question… I’m just getting frustrated and at the point already where i’m like “screw this i’ll just get a Comp Sci degree”.