Life is hard

bkiersted
Mon, 08 Jun 2009 03:39:34 +0000

When things don’t go as desired or planned, what do you guys do to get through this life without getting mad, overwhelmed or depressed?

Below are what’s currently really bothering me:

-I just scored a 40% on my physiology midterm, 10% lower than the average, despite putting in so much effort and worrying into it. I’m going to be a senior and I’ve never felt so defeated before. I’m going to talk to the prof tomorrow about how I should proceed in the course, but I seriously feel like a loser for having to do this.
-I need to write essays for several award applications, whose deadlines are less than two weeks away.
-I blew away 20 hours of my planned study period this weekend because I was depressed, couldn’t concentrate and just wasn’t motivated. What I did instead was I indulged in a lot of fun activities that I normally turn down. While doing those activities, I repeatedly thought to myself, “I shouldn’t be doing this now,” but I just couldn’t help myself. I think I’m out of my mind. Maybe I have some issues with impulse control. I really suck at just sucking it up. Now I have a 20-hour worth of material to catch up, which will be added to next week’s new material. This will make my life even harder, considering that my schedule is tight with other ECs.

I seriously want to dump, abandon and forget everything and just go live in some isolated place.