never had a boyfriend

theladymacbeth
Sun, 11 Nov 2018 20:10:58 +0000

Long story short, I’m in my senior year and have never had a boyfriend. I’ve gone on one sort-of date, but I thought we were just friends and he just wanted a hook up. Being single has never really bothered me because most of my friends were also single. But now, nearly all of them have boyfriends or will have one very soon.

All of my friends always talk about boys and of course I feel left out. I try to be happy and supportive for them, but I guess I’m a crappy friend because I’m always jealous of their relationships. I’m beginning to feel worthless and insecure.

I’m introverted, but I wouldn’t say I’m shy. Although I get nervous, I have no issue starting conversations with boys. No one I’ve liked has ever returned the interest. Just this week, I was waiting after class to talk to a boy from my English class who I liked and had talked to once before. He looked at me, we made eye contact, and I tried to flash him a smile just before he literally ran away. Like actually sprinted down the hallway.

I just don’t understand. Am I intimidating or unattractive? Is something wrong with me?

And how can I be a better friend and happier for all my friends in relationships?