not feeling motivated and dreading the new school year

heteromono
Tue, 31 Jul 2018 16:31:22 +0000

hi, I know I’ve been here a lot but like for the past couple of weeks, I just don’t feel motivated to do anything especially my summer hw which is a heck of a ton bc of me doing full IB next year. On top of that I still have a online math course I have to finish in two weeks in order to take math SL next year. I emailed to see if I can change it to Math Studies but like they havent replied yet and that means I’ll have to do the math course which I don’t even know why I took. I thought I could handle it but no. So basically I have two weeks left and so so much work to do but my brain is just stressing out instead of actually doing it. I’ve been procrastinating to try to forget about it and I just keep overthinking stuff. I just don’t know about my life right now. On top of that, I’m dreading my new school year bc I’m usually a quiet person so people sorta see me as a loner and I don’t feel comfortable speaking in class and i don’t have many close friends so I really don’t have a stable friend group. I’m just really stressed. On top of that I’ve been pushing off my drivetimes because I’m scared of driving and I feel like I can’t do anything right. I’m almost a junior and I feel like my sister who’s in 8th grade is more productive than me and she is. College is a whole another story. My parents think if I can’t get into at least OSU or a 50% acceptance rate school then I’m stupid. Also my pACT scores are so bad I don’t think I’ll even get a 29. Sorry for the rant. idk. My life is just really idek right now.