Not sure whats wrong with me

inthegarden
Mon, 17 Jun 2019 22:40:46 +0000

How many more credits will you need to graduate? How long will that take you (combined with your work schedule)?

You’re clearly burned out and tired, but I think you must be close enough to the finish line to give it another push or two. Are you taking summer classes? Maybe you could use a summer off of school to do some very different things that you could enjoy…a different job, that could just get you out of your particular rut. Even if it’s not a better job…even a satisfactory lateral move can get you unstuck and meeting new people. If you’re on campus (or when you go back to campus) can you join a recreational fitness group of some kind so you’re not just working out alone (is there no way to do martial arts at school without dealing with the club membership?) Are there ways you could meet graduate students who are closer to your age/maturity level ? Any outdoor/ hiking groups? Anything you can do to get out of your current bubble can help you shake off some of the inertia. Often the first steps in changing your situation are the hardest ones…every step forward makes the next ones easier to do.

Don’t think about medical school right now if it’s just too overwhelming. However, it sounds as if you have aptitude for work in medical settings as well as enthusiasm for sciences, so don’t make decisions that would impede yourself in the future if you would want to try medical school or a related field (like nursing, PT, OT) later. Try again to talk to professors about your interests and concerns. Maybe you could find a mentor that way. Many professors love to find students who are actually interested in the subjects, so go to them instead of your fellow students to show your enthusiasm. If there’s a professor that you feel more comfortable with than others, or who does work in something you find fascinating, offer to help with research!

Another thing to explore/consider is whether you are clinically depressed. Is there really no affordable way to get counseling? Have you ever been prescribed anti-anxiety or anti-depressant medication?

Let us know how it goes…I think you have a lot of potential. Please don’t waste it…You’ve already come so far! There are a lot of people on this site to help you do some brainstorming about your situation. We can’t substitute for therapists or academic advisors, but there are lots of us who get satisfaction from helping students along the path. Virtual hugs!