Physically abusive parents

hirokee
Tue, 03 Mar 2009 01:13:23 +0000

My parents have always been physically abusive- beating me up, slapping me, kicking me and once when I was younger they used to heat an incense stick and press the hot stick onto my hands.
It’s always for really stupid reasons, like if I didn’t eat my vegetables, if I didn’t do my homework, if I sleep for 8 hours a day (my parents believe that 5 hours is the maximum sleep i need since i have to study so much) or if i watch a bit too much t.v.
And I hate it! I’m so angry and I’m so scared of them.
Last night when I really wanted to sleep but I had to study a bit more, my mom beat me up and slapped me and yanked my hair and made me finish studying and then let me sleep.
By the way, my dad is physically abusive with my mom and he beats her up a lot so it’s like my mom beats me up coz my dad beats and abuses her. Also, they swear at me like I’ve killed someone and the beatings I can handle since I’m used to it, but the swearing really hurts me coz I feel so useless and stupid after that.
I don’t even know what to say, I’ve never confessed this to anyone. I cry a lot, I’m severly depressed around my family but around my friends I’m really happy and cheerful and I have severly low confidence coz of them but I guess I get good grades and am able to go to nyu next year because of them.
I’ve tried to tell them how much they’ve hurt me and how violence isn’t necessary, but they just never listen. I don’t know what to do or how to feel because I feel so stripped and raw. So,what should I do about my parents?