Put your hands in the air

youarebeautiful
Wed, 30 Mar 2011 16:30:55 +0000

Lol… Yeah… I haven’t received the rejection letter yet, but my hopes are close to nothing at this point. I’ve had to face so many rejections already and the hard part is, I know why I received them. I was severely ill during my senior year, so bad that I had to take an entire semester off. And the year before that… so many family/legal issues that I simply couldn’t concentrate on my studies and resorted to doing bad things to myself. Sigh. I am unfortunate for my circumstances, but my hope to pursue my aspirations one day has never faded away through all of it. Sure, I wasn’t ready to share all of my insights, feelings, and philosophies into my essays when it was time to apply. Anybody could argue that I simply wasn’t ready at that point in December. I just feel so discouraged because I used to be ‘one of the top’ in my school and now I’m at the bottom (not being accepted into any school but my backup). It just hurts and I don’t want to expect anymore.

Wrong place to vent and rant, sorry guys, but I had just had to let people know that fate is fate… but never let go of your hopes and dreams. Everything is possible.