Severe Anxiety and Homework

dsilva
Mon, 10 Mar 2008 14:53:37 +0000

I have a very similar problem; you’re not alone. I was once very responsible about school-work and grades and everything, but I basically stopped doing my work ever since my OCD worsened in 2006. I went to a summer program at MIT which only made it worse. My main compulsion was making lists constantly of every thought, idea, task, and everything. My OCD is relatively under control now, with the help of a couple of medications (also for ADD) but the obsessive mentality and a few other compulsions are still there. I truly believe the symptoms you have could be a form of OCD or Pure Obsessional OCD (compulsions are purely mental), because I am the same way in terms of not wanting to start something unless I can do it error-free so I spend a lot of time preparing to do it and staying organized about doing it, but never get down to the meat of it. It’s rough. I ended up doing poorly my senior year of high school (2006-2007) and not getting into the college of my choice solely because of senior year grades. I currently go to RPI which isn’t too hard of a school, but any large assignment overwhelms me so much and I fall behind very easily. I am transferring to UConn next year to be closer to home for clinical help, for a little break in terms of workload, to save money, and various other reasons. But the idea is the same. The thought of being organized about doing the work and knowing what I have to do is comforting, but actually starting gives me a very anxious feeling inside and it takes a lot of pressure and motivation for me to get down to doing it.

OCD is an anxiety disorder and you obviously have anxiety and a mentality of someone with the disorder, so consider the possibility and if you want to know more about it from a personal perspective feel free to send me a message on here or AIM or anything. My info is in my CC profile.