Severe depression in college

jake85
Tue, 13 Jan 2009 17:56:23 +0000

I’m in my fourth semester at a large state university, a couple states away from where I live. Every day here is a constant struggle.
Sometimes I feel like killing myself, other times I feel like jumping on a plane to see my family(whom I really miss, although I dont tell them). The only reason I stay and not transfer, I guess, is that the school I’m at is really good for my major. I’m currently taking 20 credits, but I’m beginning to realize that I’m doing it just to smother myself in books, and have an excuse not to go out.

I’ve had trouble for years now making friends, or more basically, starting conversations. I try joining clubs, but everyone seems to know everyone else and I feel left out. I’ve though about a frat(I’m a guy obviously), but I’m very very shy to begin with. I’m currently in counseling at my school, but I feel like its going nowhere. I still do not have a single friend at this school. Even my roommate and I barely talk(usually once/twice a week)…I’m halfway in tears writing this question.

What do you suggest I do for myself? and please take this post seriously - no jokes
thank you

I’ve posted this in another forum section for different opinions