Siblings once you leave?

wisdom86
Sat, 02 Jan 2010 11:39:20 +0000

I worry about my siblings… however, I have somewhat of an alternate situation? I’m the youngest, a girl, with two older brothers. one of my brothers is twice my age, married, and has two little girls, he lives like 10 minutes away and he’s over every weekend etc. unless he’s away on business, in which case my sister 'n law brings my nieces over and what not…

Then, there’s my other older brother who do to financial reasons/not being a citizen (and therefore, not getting any financial aid…) didn’t go away to college, he just got his associated degree from a local college and is currently transferring to another university nearby to get his bachelors… He’s definitely the one I’m worried about. He’s a couple years older than me, however, a lot of things in his life have been out of his control and gone wrong, I guess, and I’ve sort of become his best friend, I’d say. We’re really close, and I feel like hell leaving him behind and moving to NY for college… he’ll be all alone… and I can’t help but feel like it’s so unfair that just because I was born here, I have so many more privileges and opportunities… opportunities he missed out on, not because he was unqualified, but because he was unlucky.

I feel like it’s a common thing for the older sibling to leave the younger one… but not for the younger to leave the older. My parents have been stricter with me because I’m a girl, however, it’s definitely been my brother that has enabled me to hang out with friends and do fun things by covering for me to my parents. I worry about him so much; I feel like my parents have ruined him for the world by being overbearing and over protective to the extent that now my brothers kind of antisocial and sad…

I just hope that me being gone turns out to be something positive and that he redirects his life such that he’s not sad/lonely anymore. =\ idk what to do about the guilt I feel in leaving him though :