Suicide - Unit 2, is it true?

SummonerLenne
Fri, 11 May 2012 22:18:50 +0000

Everyone who can’t understand this, that’s just it. You can’t understand. I’m not saying I understand him either- I didn’t know him, and no one will know what was going through his mind but him- but it’s never just about grades. It’s about everything, and feeling so lonely and depressed. But so much self worth is based upon how well you’re doing, if you’re making your family proud, and I can tell you that every time I personally mess up in school, don’t get an essay done on time and have to beg the teacher for an extension and hope they will believe me that I am depressed and not just making it up- I hate myself so badly I really do think I’d be better off dead. Mind you, that’s as far as the thoughts go for me personally, and I don’t think I ever would kill myself (I have too many people who love me and who I’d break), but… the worst thing possible is to hate yourself.

I’m so sad for the friends and family of Henry, and I hope they can find some kind of comfort, somewhere. As unlikely as that is. My brother, who goes to Cal (I hope I can go to Cal one day, I’m currently appealing, long story) texted me when this happened, asking me if I’d ever do this. I wouldn’t, but the fact he cared was- incredible (we haven’t always had the best of relationships, to put it lightly). So just… try to always let people know that you love that you love them, and that if they mess up, it’s not the end of the world- you can always try again, there’s always another way.

Blah, I have no idea if this made any sense, this post is basically all Feelings. Ya…