Swearing - is it okay in this instance?

Alexander1
Wed, 03 Sep 2008 15:06:24 +0000

I’m writing an essay about my father - and I’m wondering about the use of profanity. I know it’s usually a no-go, but I think the use of strong words underlines the anger/disappointment. Do not concern yourself with the particular mistakes in English - especially the commas, I’m not native, and will ask a native to correct the final draft.

This is how I remember the end of the world:
“I do not want this day to end,” my father stated, staring at the darkening stains on my mothers’ dress. She whimpered in a way that would haunt me forever, desperately trying to get some air. Her nose was smashed, and her left eye was shockingly red from a damaged blood vessel.
… (Here are a few paragraphs)

“This day could last forever,” my father said, and laid down the letter, which said ‘We regret to tell you…’, which in reality meant “**** off, we don’t want you.”

(The essay basically tells us about we both react differently to difficult situations - and how I always thought his words were callous and uncaring. The essay ends with him dying and me wishing for this day to last forever - a philosophy I didn’t understand until this very day.)

Do you think I can leave this profanity? I’m always annoyed that I can’t hear the subtle undertones of English… :-(