The final hour before leaving home

LINYMOM
Wed, 25 Aug 2010 07:04:07 +0000

Sitting here, last full day before taking D to college, I am a wreck and the post from bca said it all. I fill my head with positive self-talk all day, so as not to make D any more anxious than she already is. She too has focused on the excitement but, after she finally confronted packing her clothes last night, the anxiety got to her (just minutes before, she was busy highlighting the freshman schedule for the few days before classes start with amazing excitement). I have to always be the excited, happy one (and I am, because my college experience was amazing and I am so proud of her and excited for her). I am not worried about her at all. I know this is just a transition. We did so many right things bringing her up (so I agree with Vince on his post). But, plain and simple, I will just miss her. There’s no one in my house I can talk to about this. I will probably go see my friend across the street later; she brought her S to college last week.

So today, I will enjoy the day with D, taking her for her haircut and to the nail salon. Maybe out to lunch with grandma. Help her with her last minute stuff this aftenoon so she can spend time with her BFF after that. I have no idea how I’m going to make it through the next few days. I have great plans with S (HS soph) starting Monday - and I am really truly looking forward to spending the time with him - but really, all I want to do right now is sit here and cry.

Thanks for listening.