The final hour before leaving home

abasket
Sat, 28 Aug 2010 22:57:04 +0000

Well, as of right now, we experienced both the “last hour home this morning” AND the “first hour back home without him” tonight.

The morning was REALLY tough. Basically we were getting up, showering and leaving. S has held it together pretty well - even last night with his GF - this morning he walked out of the bathroom after taking a shower and just sadly fell in my arms. Lots of mixed emotions I think. He was slow to get the his last few things together and we were a bit late leaving but I kept my “like to be on time” mouth shut. Then just before we left (and while he was still kind of upset about leaving) he hit his dad’s head with the car door - OMG, my husband reacted in such pain that I think my son thought he killed him!!! Poor kid! Already feeling bad and now feeling awful! H was ok after a few minutes and we got in the car with the tears out of the way and made our trip. Busy day of course, excitement of the campus, anxiety about meeting new people and some more tears at the end. Watching him and his siblings hug (and cry) just CRUSHED me - can you tell I am easily emotional!?

We arrived home an hour ago and I told myself to not even look in his room until morning - things always look brighter in the morning…