the freshman *fifty*

synecdocheNY
Mon, 27 Jun 2011 17:58:56 +0000

oh wow, thanks for all the comments, I expected just a few people scolding me to get in control of myself and shut up and go away.

just to answer a few questions that have come up…



missypie:

Do you still like the healthy foods? Could you go back to them?

Are you ADD?

Would you say you have impulse control problems, such as excessive spending?



I do not have ADD. I do still like the healthy foods, it’s just that i opened pandora’s box by getting into unhealthy foods… it’s like, why spend so much money on fresh, healthy produce when you can just go to Wendy’s for cheaper? i realize how ridiculous this sounds and i’m really going to try to force myself out of the apartment to go to the store in a couple of days.

as far as the impulse control thing, I’d say that i guess I have some small problems with that… i do often spend too much just as kind of a leisure activity, but I wouldn’t say I’m a crazy, compulsive shopper or anything like that…

something else I didn’t mention in my post was that I did kind of have an eating disorder in high school. I wasn’t terribly unhealthy but I did skip meals very often or throw away food and a few times and got obsessed with reading pro-anorexia websites (yes, they exist unfortunately) and looking at “thinspiration” (i.e. pictures of stick-thin models and celebrities). This phase only lasted a few months though, thank god, and i think it was because of extreme stress and pressure (I was a dancer and basketball player in HS, very active in both things).

whatever though, when I wrote this post I wasn’t quite thinking clear. i know I’m in control here and can’t let food control my life like this.