The Proverbial "Oh Crap" Moment

<p>So, I went back today and read my essays on the UVa application (because I can...and I need to pass the time until Friday when the decisions will be available online) when I realized that they sucked horribly! Dear God, I think I sabotaged the time they seemed clever and quirky, but in retrospect, I sounded like a shallow airhead...and now I have to sweat it out until Friday.</p>

<p>Do you think that a crap essay (and by crap, I mean that it was obvious from my tone that I was trying too hard to be witty and was one of those painful to read essays because you can taste the desperation in it and it kills you inside to read it) will blind the admissions committee to the positives on my application (such as my other, well-written essay)?</p>

<p>Do you think they'll understand/forgive my pathetic writer's voice in that one crap essay and place more weight on the better one (I was more comfortable writing about one topic than the other)?</p>

<p>Sweet Jesus, why isn't it Friday yet?</p>


<p>I think at some point you have to just let it go. I know that's easier said than done, but there's nothing you can do about it at this point.</p>

<p>My D had one essay that she asked me to read. I didn't like it. She asked five other people to read it and they all said it was great. She started stressing out. I finally told her that at some point you have to just go with YOUR gut and make a decision.</p>

<p>Whether your essay is really crap or not, I don't know. What I DO know is that there are plenty of professional writers, musicians, etc, who can't look at their own work because they always see how it could have been improved. </p>

<p>It'll be Friday soon...</p>

<p>At this point, there's really nothing you can do to change it, so there's no point in panicking. Just hope for the best, and if you don't get it, just shake it off.</p>

<p>jude had a good point bringing up people who always see ways their work could be improved. Maybe your essay was good but you got too focused on one aspect of it and assumed that because that one aspect was lackluster, the entire essay was.</p>

<p>Again, try to relax, and you can't change anything at this point, so there's no sense in worrying. Besides, I'm sure admissions will base their decision on more than just an essay.</p>

<p>my life (now) sucks too.</p>

<p>Lolz. I went back and looked at my essays for both Northwestern and Rice. Maaan. I have no idea what them admissions people were thinking when they admitted me.</p>

<p>So don't worry so much. Everything looks bad in retrospect.</p>

<p>Aw, thanks guys...</p>

<p>I guess after getting the news that I was waitlisted at two of the 5 colleges that I applied to (one was a "match, "the other a "reach," so I'm not sure how I feel right now), I'm a little on the edge. I got into my two safeties (who also offered generous scholarships ^_^), but UVa is my first choice for sure. </p>

<p>Ah well, I'll wait till Friday and see.</p>

<p>i refuse to read mine, no way it will make me feel anything but worse</p>

<p>Haha, this is why you never go back and read essays after they've been submitted. ;)</p>

<p>Honestly though, it's out of yours hands now. Go outside and enjoy the sunshine! You'll be fine. Congrats on the scholarships, too!</p>

<p>wel e veryone is their worst critic, youre probably just freaking out because its close to decision time. dont worry, just relax and watever happens happens. and dont worry, to put in retropect, i wrote the worst intro sentence ever for nyu essay and got in. it was bad grammar and i thought it sounded cute in the beginning. mistakes happen. also, i found a typo on some of my essays. adcoms know youre human and its alright. dont even stress and good luck with decisions!!</p>