Tired of school

dextrous
Sun, 29 Mar 2015 18:27:51 +0000

College is pretty challenging to me. I’m behind a lot of my peers who don’t seem to find the material hard at all. I try to catch up to them. I started doing research which I found out to be a lot more boring than I anticipated. I’m in a lot of stress and I don’t get much sleep but the other kids I know are not struggling. It also seems like my grade is being artificially lowered in a lot of cases. I hate having to go to the professors and tell them that my test was incorrectly graded. Why can’t they just grade it correctly the first time? It’s just a huge amount of stress dealing with that. I don’t have any real friends in college either. There are some people I talk to sometimes but I don’t have anyone close. But I haven’t met anyone I really wanted to be friends with either. Everyone here is just trying to one-up each other, always bragging about their accomplishments, always trying to get something out of people. I’m pretty sick of it. I have horrible hygiene now, my room is disorganized and uncomfortable. There are days when I just sit for hours doing nothing but staring at the huge amount of things I have to do. My parents are paying an insane amount of money for me to study here, so I need to try my best. But it’s hell. I love studying, but I hate school. I know the first response will be “you have depression”. I already went to the psychologist and had therapy and whatever but it doesn’t help me. The thing is, I know I am not alone in feeling like this. But knowing that doesn’t make me feel any better. I’m not really asking for a solution, this was mostly a rant.