Even a couple days ago, I was thinking about how depressed I would be if I didn’t get into Williams. It made me sick thinking about it. Anyway, I shave pent these past few days being anxious and nervous, and wishing I will find good news in the mail. But now I am not as sure about WIlliams.
To avoid disappointment I decided to compare it to my second choice school and see how much better it would be to go to school at Macalester. So I started thinking about how Macalester would be a little less rigorous than WIlliams, how there wasn’t such an athletic emphasis as it at WIlliams, that it is in the city, that it probably wouldn’t be so competitive, and that it seems a little less conventional. I really don’t care about prestige, though WIlliams beats Macalester there.
Anyway, so then I all of a sudden think, “You know, maybe Macalester is better for me.” I was so awed by Macalester and it was my definite top choice until WIlliams offered a free plane ticket to a multicultural program. There I just loved Williams, the feel of being on the east coast (minnesota girl here). So WIlliams moved to the top of my list and I applied, quite sure I would love to go to school there.
Now, I think I would love either school. But part of me is telling me maybe Macalester is better for me. I guess I tricked myself into seeing Williams in a more negative light. I at first did it as a way to avoid ED rejection disappointment but then it kind of became real I guess. Now, I feel that if I don’t get into Williams, it will be okay and maybe a good thing. Maybe it would have been too much of a stresser.
Of course, I’d still be disappointed because I’d have to tell all the people I was deferred/rejected or whatever, but to myself I think I would be okay. Well, I just felt like sharing my rambling thoughts…
I honestly don’t know if Macalester or Williams is better for me. I guess I’ll let Williams Admissions committee decide. The major plus about being accepted ED is I could avoid applying to all the other schools and just focus on scholarship apps.
Okay, anyone else in this same position?