WashU or Rice?

indecisivemess
Wed, 02 May 2018 05:37:35 +0000

I have 2 finals tomorrow I haven’t studied for because I’ve been so focused on this, so I (somehow) have to get to that haha.

Feeling really confused right now. Pretty much all of my friends encouraged me to go to WashU over Rice (granted, most of them didn’t know what Rice was, it’s very unpopular at my school), and one of my closest friends since kindergarten is going to WashU and it would’ve been super cool to keep on going to school with him and my Mom really supported WashU (she couldn’t even pretend to be happy about Rice I had to kick her out of my room for some mental space, I think she’s also upset though cuz there’s way less Jews at Rice loll) and WashU was kind of the school I envisioned myself at since the beginning of the college application process (it was definitely the acceptance letter I was initially the most excited and happy about). But when you simply break it down logically and “ignore” the heart, for me there really didn’t appear to be objective reasons to go to WashU over Rice. Both are pretty much equal academically for what I want to do, and Rice has the benefit of being $40k cheaper. My college counselors, who are the true experts on the matter, certainly felt the same way

I didn’t expect to have such a strong and confused emotional reaction to this though. I feel like most people are super excited when they commit, and I’m feeling more mixed or sad. Not meaning to sound selfish, I’m super grateful for the position I’m in and the choice I had. It’s just weird, y’know? I feel like if I committed to WashU and not Rice I wouldn’t be having such an emotional reaction, and a lot of that has to do with the fact that I’ve been super emotionally invested in WashU since I first visited months ago whereas for Rice I first applied on a whim because of the fee waiver and only truly realized how amazing it is afterwards. I wish I could go to both lol.

Anyways, thank you guys for embarking on this emotional journey with me. Honestly I feel like you all are part of my family now haha, you guys have been so unbelievably nice and helpful!!! I’ll need to make it up to you guys some day, if you’re ever in Houston lemme take you out for lunch