Hello, I am a High School Junior who simply just fears about the college applications. I am not someone that fits well with the public school system, being placed into classes that are not necessary or just difficult for me in general (I believe I might have ADHD but i have not been checked yet}
I am someone who is amazingly well in math and physics (also first chair in Orchestra), being able to skip classes towards advance ones, with a background that lacks much money. As I pursue my interest into majoring in Pure Math and Theoretical Physics, it lingers how the way the school system does not efficiently take my personality well might severely harm me, as i struggle in English and History with the way I learn. It almost brings me to tears on how the way school system does not work for me efficiently has made me struggle, with months feeling like a failure and hopeless in classes that were to hard for me to learn naturally or in classes that was not even interested.(This year i was placed into two computer based classes with I did not need at all and had severe problems with still). I know i'm exaggerating my overall views, but it simple feels as that the way I learn and subjects I am excellent at just aren't important in the eyes of my school.
I have skipped Algebra 2, Physics 1, and currently taking AP Stats and AP Physics C, and basically have enough required credits to graduate already but I have been told I couldn't not; now stuck taking elective classes Senior year. I'll be taking 5 AP exams, with one being Calc BC, as my school didn't have enough room for me to enroll so i decided to just take the exams instead of waiting next year. I have and still am doing self studying in math and physics to help me learn in advance and to skip classes. There are also teachers who know how smart I am in math and physics, including teachers who i never enrolled too. I won't go in to much detail in my academic history but I hope this will suffice.
Knowing I don't do well in English and thus writing, I hope people who read this will understand how I feel about my situation. I just want to know if and how can I succeed when my grades aren't reflecting on what kind of a person I am academically
(Sorry if this felt like a ramble, I'll revise it after I get more used to this forum. Thank you so much)