Currently failing calc because I had a panic attack in the middle of a test…
I don’t know why the universe had to pick me, out of all people, to have severe mental health issues. I’ve missed 20-25% of school this year and everyone’s just judging the crap out of me, including the people who are supposed to form my support system like my parents, teachers, and counselors. My therapist is a total quack and spends half the sessions talking about how “brilliant” I am and the other half talking about how sorry she is for me. we can only get an appointment once a month anyway.
I also hate how my parents forced me into college prep school despite the number of times I told them I would not do well. Now all the adults in my life are trapping me here and I have absolutely no control over it. The vice principal told me I would be “closing doors” if I left. The sophomore GC told me I would regret not pushing through my mental illness later in life. To make matters worse, the principal refused my request for a 504. My teachers are pushing me to do well on all my APs (which I am totally screwed for) and get As in their classes, and my friends are chastising me for wanting to leave and say I’m just being lazy. Honestly no one is on my side here(except my english teacher, kudos to him) and I hate it.
In the meantime I need to get 100 on my calc final to pass the class, and there’s no way that’s going to happen. Guess I’ll be getting a GED and going to community college since my school doesn’t allow remedial coursework over the summer… I don’t know what happened to the kid who was bound for success.