Hi guys. I'm not sure where else to put this...
So. Yeah. I messed up bad. This year I got seriously ill (but beat it) for many months. More or less it made me look like death and people were always looking at me disgust.
I got fit the year beforehand and was used to being bullied already for the way I looked, so moving on to discover myself looking like a monster to people despite being "fit", as well as feeling physically awful...yeah, I just broke.
Anyways...yeah. I did take care of these issues mostly over the past few months, but in the process I tanked in school,
The doctor I needed to get proof from was taking a leave of absence and my psychiatrist's letter didn't save my appeal; I was ousted. I think I could apply for readmission next year, but after doing some required coursework.
UCSD isn't even that great of a fit for me.
I do know that I'll have to do my research beyond this. Now, though? I'm lost--
And I don't know how much funding I have left. Maybe a year for the cal grant. Elsewhere, not so sure how the aid goes down, or if I could even get anything.
I'm not even sure with my GPA I'd qualify for financial aid anymore, unfortunately, even with my need. I mainly want to pursue computer programming--and I don't mind where I go, but again...financial aid.
I used to be an engineering major, but yeah...that was a mistake. I was doing programming on my own time and enjoying it way more, and I find I have a better talent for it.
Again I know this is all very...I don't know. Silly. But I really want to see whether or not I can do anything. I'm not sure if I want to go back to community college. I have some awful and scary memories there. And I'd be going to the same one. I feel almost tempted to just get the cheapest, tiniest place ever, and proceed to learn more programming on my own time. But again...something in me really wants to go back to school for one more shot.