I have been academically disqualified because of my illness...would any other university take me?

Applying to College
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Hi guys. I’m not sure where else to put this…

So. Yeah. I messed up bad. This year I got seriously ill (but beat it) for many months. More or less it made me look like death and people were always looking at me disgust.

I got fit the year beforehand and was used to being bullied already for the way I looked, so moving on to discover myself looking like a monster to people despite being “fit”, as well as feeling physically awful…yeah, I just broke.

Anyways…yeah. I did take care of these issues mostly over the past few months, but in the process I tanked in school,
The doctor I needed to get proof from was taking a leave of absence and my psychiatrist’s letter didn’t save my appeal; I was ousted. I think I could apply for readmission next year, but after doing some required coursework.

UCSD isn’t even that great of a fit for me.

I do know that I’ll have to do my research beyond this. Now, though? I’m lost–
And I don’t know how much funding I have left. Maybe a year for the cal grant. Elsewhere, not so sure how the aid goes down, or if I could even get anything.

I’m not even sure with my GPA I’d qualify for financial aid anymore, unfortunately, even with my need. I mainly want to pursue computer programming–and I don’t mind where I go, but again…financial aid.

I used to be an engineering major, but yeah…that was a mistake. I was doing programming on my own time and enjoying it way more, and I find I have a better talent for it.

Again I know this is all very…I don’t know. Silly. But I really want to see whether or not I can do anything. I’m not sure if I want to go back to community college. I have some awful and scary memories there. And I’d be going to the same one. I feel almost tempted to just get the cheapest, tiniest place ever, and proceed to learn more programming on my own time. But again…something in me really wants to go back to school for one more shot.

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More or less I’m jut asking for feedback. Maybe not all the answers, but feedback about how a person in my circumstances should proceed.

Edit: and emotionally I still have severe anxiety, especially around other people–as in sometimes I start having a panic/asthma attack when out in public…I know this wouldn’t be good for university, but at least in my experience being around people my age is not so scary.

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you need to get mentally fit first before even THINKING about applying to ANY college.
otherwise you are likely to fail again.
do online coding classes to maintain/ improve your programming skills while getting help for your anxiety issues.

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Agree, with @menloparkmom, you shouldn’t be returning to a university if you still have issues with being at a school.

UCSD is a tough school, and, doing computer programming, on your own, avoiding other class requirements, really doesn’t bode well for any other college if you plan on repeating the same patterns of avoidance.

Also, the school wouldn’t “dismiss” you because of your illness, they dismissed you because you didn’t complete your requirements (or provide proof of working with MH professionals). These schools work well with students who need additional support, but you have to be willing to speak to someone onsite and ask for help. I’ve referred a number of former students to their CAPS program. They actively want to help students do well at their site. If you don’t seek help, until after you’ve been dismissed, then there is only so much they can do. I would suggest you get in contact with UCSD’s CAPS program. They may still be able to help you. You don’t sound like you are ready to go back to school yet.
https://caps.ucsd.edu

Take some time off and try to work or volunteer to get comfortable being around people.

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I am sorry you are struggling. Anxiety is horrible. Think about working with UCSD, possibly on an online program. Even if they are not a great fit, if you can work your way through with them, it helps both you and them (they get to up their percentage graduating by helping those that struggle in the middle). Another place, even small, would present opportunities but also new challenges. Also, I would check out Arizona State online program, or SNHU online as options for finishing, but without having to face the massive crowds again and again. Good luck to you!

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  1. Did you talk to the Dean of Students while this was happening to get support/help?
  2. Did you consider withdrawing some or all of your classes so as not to fail?
  3. Did you consider taking incompletes in some of all of your classes?
  4. Did you talk to the disability office to get accomodations?

If not, i am not trying to pick on you, but to show that there are support systems in place. My DD had to go into the hospital for a week so she contacted her professors, and the Dean of Students…one professor strongly suggested she drop his class…so she did and then only has 12 credits (but still full time). She got accommodations from the disability office for being able to hand in assignments late.

But here you are.

Here is a post that I saw on this topic from someone who is on a committee that review these letters:

My committee would consider you a strong case for reinstatement if you can provide:
a) documentation from your health care provider of a diagnosis
b) confirmation from your health care provider that you have been compliant with treatment and your situation has improved so that you are better equipped to handle the stress of college life if/when you return
c) details of how you plan to continue your treatment plan after you return to school
d) details of other campus resources you will use and adjustments you will make after you return to enhance your success
e) some statement of how you know your treatment has improved your situation (e.g. if you have been working during your time away and found it easier to handle the stress and demands as your treatment progressed)

Are you ready to return to UCSD? Should you take some classes at Community College?