I have no idea what I'm doing with my life
I am almost done with my first semester of my sophomore year at a 4 year university. I'm just gonna be 100% honest, like probably a lot of other college kids I have no freakin clue what I'm doing. Or better yet, I've had a clue, rather several that just fizzle out due to sudden disinterest or research surrounding each field. I came into college with a bright-eyed perspective that I was going to work with special needs kids through special education, but I suddenly realized oh wait I don't actually want to be a teacher, especially not with the burnout rate that special ed teachers in specific have... Continuing with my idea of special needs I thought okay, lets think of another career that has a better career outlook and possibly pays better. Okay how about speech pathology, except for the slight problem that I have absolutely no interest in that career, just the slight possibility I could work with special needs. I've contemplated so many things in such a short amount of time and as much as I want to be set in stone on something, I can never get to that point. I thought about going home and getting a degree in a technical program but honestly that is such a bad idea for someone who can't possibly stick to one thing. I've been thinking about nursing and I really like the idea of it, but I also understand there will be a lot of sacrifice made by me while in school and out of school as well. I don't mind the in school sacrifice, as it is for a good cause, but it makes me sad to think that one day I might not be able to watch my kids grow up because of the 12 hour shifts. I want a career where I can help other human beings on a personal level, without sacrificing my well being in the process. Is there even a career that fits the description?! Please don't be mean, I know I may sound like a whiny 19 year old but these are legitimate concerns. Any adults on here, just try to remember how it felt for you at this time in your life. Thank you you guys.