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I’m no expert, but I’m fairly sure that true depression can’t be “cured” by saying “**** it all.”
A bad mood? Sure. But depression? Nope.
Please take my advice as both a mom and an educator: if you’re depressed, really depressed, then you can’t “cure” it on your own-- no more than you could cure Mono or remove a tumor through will power.
Your mental health is of parmount importance. So if the only way to get to that intake interview is to skip a class, then choose the class in which you have the highest grade and the fewest absences, and get to that interview.
If you had a fever of 102 and were dizzy, you would treat this as real medical issue and get help, right? OK, this is a real medical issue, and you’ve told us you have the symptoms. Your mental health is every bit as important to your well being as your physical health.
If you’re having “dangerous thoughts” then this is an emergency. TODAY-- right now-- I want you to make your RA aware of the situation. Email or print up your OP and get it to an adult. NOW. Right now. Call your parents if you need to, get on a bus and go home, do what you need to do to get the help you need.
Seven years ago I woke up with a big lump in my breast. Wishing it away, hoping it away, none of that worked. Our bodies simply don’t work that way. Seeing the appropriate medical professionals is what you do when your body is exhibiting signs of a problem.
OK, get off the computer, and deal with the signs that there’s a problem. Two hours from when you read this, I want you to post that you’ve taken some steps to let someone else know there’s a problem, OK?