Live your life moving forward. Don’t look back. Good to get it out. Wherever you end up in college try the things you want to try.
Someone said further up that the OP could have made different choices, we don’t know that. Maybe these were choices made or influenced by well intentioned parents.
You’ve got the rest of your life ahead of you. It’s going to suck at times but other times it’s going to amazing. Hang in there and good luck.