thank you for the replies. i’m slowly starting to recover. at the moment i can’t stop myself from being insecure, but from what you’ve both written i have hope that i’ll get over this quickly. thanks again.
would it be too much to ask if either/both of you can read my main essay? i’ve messaged some close friends and they’ve said they’ll read it and give me comments, but i’d like to get a stranger’s/adult’s perspective if possible.