After hours of crying... what should i do?

same boat, I feel like crossing out my original list and just applying to schools near home. my parents are being really supportive over this rejection and they’re super nice but that makes this worse… all that money they paid for my stupid private school and SAT books and applications… and another small fortune to pay for applying to schools that, from how Ive been feeling for the last couple days, I’m not going to get accepted to anyway. But the only way to know is to apply I guess. It would be great if we had an outlet for our insecurities though.