@gardenstategal thank you so much for your kind words and encouragement. It means so much to me! I’d never imagine in a thousand years that my daughter would have been rejected or waitlisted by all of the private schools that she applied for. Brown and JHU are our last hope–a hope of validation for all of her hard work. I know UW is a decent school and close to home and she’d have opportunity double majoring in premed and music. I know she’d strive at UW and there’s no doubt that she’d have bright future ahead of her. We just need a validation so we know that we have raised our children right. It’s been the most difficult 3 months of my life and I just can’t imagine that we’d have to deal with this kind of ordeals in less than 2 years. I constantly feel guilty and have a lot of “should have” in my mind. There must be something wrong–was it the essays? her major? her race? I’m so puzzled! The thoughts of “should have” tortured me and put me into a deep depression, maybe we shouldn’t have come to America 22 years ago! If she was born in China, then she’d take the same college entrance tests as everyone else and she’d choose which colleges she wants to go depending on her scores of the tests. It’s very fair–you work hard and you get into your dream schools!