@onipl, I like your post.
if it helps, consider how painful it must be to live with the idea that your value as a person, the most important metric by which you are measured, is tied to the name on your college sweatshirt.
The world is so much bigger than school, and people are so much more than GPAs. Which, in turn, is why students not in the top 5% in HS so frequently lap those who were.