How did you get involved with Lacanian psychoanalysis to the level of giving lectures to PhD’s, in 9th, 10th and 11th grades? Is your interest in linguistics related to this? What do you think about feminist critiques of Lacanianism?
Internationals who need full aid have to realize, as you no doubt do, that most of the schools that meet full need are not need-blind in admission. MIT, Harvard, Yale, Princeton, Amherst, Dartmouth and Bowdoin are need blind. I am glad you applied for a merit scholarship.
Schools that are not need-blind may still accept you of course, but financial aid is very competitive in many cases. You still have a shot!
Perhaps others know of other merit scholarships you could still apply for.
Did you submit a music supplement and/or extra letter of recommendation from EC’s outside of school?