And as an answer to how you think you’ve disappointed your family:
I would strongly urge you to speak with a school counselor, your primary care physician, or a mental health professional about your thoughts and feelings, as your comments are quite concerning to me.
Like @tsbna44, this does not sound to me like an appropriately selected school for your list. You want to make sure your college application list contains at least one (and preferably at least two) schools where you are extremely likely to be admitted, extremely likely to be affordable, AND that you would be happy to enroll in and attend for four years. If it turns out that a school is your only choice, if you would find yourself dreading putting a deposit down, or trying to find other options at the last minute, or developing your transfer strategy, or figuring out how quickly you can graduate and get away from that school, or plan to enlist instead of attending, then it is not a school you want on your list. You either need to find ways to get excited about the school or replace it with others.
One school that you might want to investigate as a sure thing is the U. of Nebraska. It allows students to do dual degrees across colleges such as business and engineering, including an honors business program (in addition to the regular honors program) (source). Here’s the link to its ChemE major:
Nebraska might not be the first school you think of when you think about finance, but Berkshire Hathaway and a number of other big financial companies are based in the state. It has a cohort group called Investors with Purpose that has a course with mentorship, the Wall Street Scholars program during a sophomore year for internship prep, as well as an investment club. You can read more about its finance program (assuming that’s your area of interest) on its website:
https://business.unl.edu/academic-programs/departments/finance/undergraduate/