<p>funny thing…i went to take AP english lang today. i didn’t get to study and i kind of overslept so i was a few minutes late. well, they realize that there isn’t enough test booklets so the testing administrator (scary…since i dealt with her for the SAT incident) feels really bad and tells me i have to make it up next week. i’m totally fine with it since i’m half asleep, completely disheveled, and haven’t studied or anything.
well, as i’m WALKING OUT THE DOOR, they find the last test booklet. so i have to take my test but everyone has already opened the shrink wrap and is starting the MC. so…i get less time than everyone else. karma is a ***** i guess haha. i deserve it. i was late.</p>
<p>anyway, it’s not necessarily a DREAM of mine to attend ivy league, but i hate it when people don’t do their full potential, including myself. i set high standards and i’m my own worst critic. (except possibly Oaksmom and rocketman haha :-/) because i was honest about the situation and am trying to grow and learn from the incident, the NHS advisor (i got kicked out of NHS, expected though) told me that the administration has implied i will get a newer start next year, my senior year. i don’t think it applies to my counselor letter of recommendation though. i don’t understand why she would want to expose this though since it just makes the whole school look bad, which is another concern of mine. i’m really worried that i ruined or dampened the chances of other kids from my school to get accepted into top tier schools that find out what i did.</p>
<p>! prep: i just think it’s unfair that it is included in my letter of rec because the other girl got of basically scotch free. she didn’t have much to lose anyway but i definitely “lost” a hell of a lot more than she did. it wasn’t included in her letter of rec and she didn’t even get kicked out of NHS since she was already inducted as a junior (it’s only for 11th and 12th grade). </p>
<p>i come from a fairly competitive class of students so yeah…taking community college for a year will definitely hurt my ego…gotta pay though i guess.</p>
<p>taggart: i went to an ivy college night thing on sunday night and…i am SO down for U Penn!! :-/</p>
<p>since it’s going in my letter of rec…my best option is to use my essay and interview and possibly provide another letter of rec to try and explain myself. i don’t know what approach to take though…</p>
<p>Sungchul: haha yeah. i’m leaning more on at least TRYING to apply because i know i’ll probably kill myself if i’ll wonder for the rest of my life “what if…”. i’m hoping people will see it as “wow…bold…she learned her lesson”. and i’m not excited, but i think i’m ready for major ego burns when april rolls around next year…</p>
<p>rocketman08: yes. i’m aware i committed a crime. i respect your opinion that you believe i should basically burn in hell (haha). no umm…honestly, i know it’s not an excuse but i definitely was not aware of how people worked for this when i took the test. it was before the whole college frenzy started for me and my peers. i think i’ve been doing well regaining back trust and respect. i know i’m trying to find the easy way out but it’s human nature…i’m sorry if it is selfish of me to not want to deter my life path for the next few years…especially since those are crucial years that are supposed to be the prime time of your life. and i guess i messed up because my ‘values system’ is unlike yours. i’m not going to lie…i knew what i was doing was wrong but i was persuaded to do it through manipulation of my sympathetic nature. and at the time, in my book, i figured it was okay, well, not okay, but better. i did not get paid. i know it’s unbelievable, no one believes me. but if i did get paid…i don’t know where the money has been… anyone who knows me knows that i am around to help anyone as much as possible, i want good people to do well. </p>
<p>oh btw, this isn’t going on a criminal record or anything…i don’t know how school records work but i don’t know where this incident is under on my record, if at all.</p>
<p>vasudevank: we did go far, far away. someone told on us.</p>
<p>Keshira; i really appreciate your post. it’s a nice change from everyone else who thinks i’m the most immoral person on the face of the earth. you’re one of the few who understand that i wasn’t motivated by money and such, i WAS manipulated. even the administration believes so. however, i am taking responsibility for my actions. whatever motives it was for…i accept that i did something terrible and there needs to be some sort of consequence, and yes, i’m frantically praying that the consequence is light but it doesn’t seem like it will be. and haha yeah, i did everything in high school because i was geniunely interested (with the exception of CSF and algebra 2 honors). i know it sounds pretentious or like i’m lying but i’m serious… i love what i’m involved in and the classes i take are extremely interesting and have influenced what i want to do for the rest of my life, if i can get there.</p>
<p>z7xfla: right now, i am looking into UC berkely. i always loved the school and atmosphere so i won’t be terribly unhappy there. i guess i just wanted something more intimate, further way, and more selective (?).</p>
<p>-Serendipity- : yeah, i’ve been trying to move on with my life but i love gossip girls and i was watching that episode…and surprise! i was in for a slap in the face again. i’m considering the essay suggestion but…well, i’ve always had a hard time writing personal essays so i was worried about my college essays even before this entire incident…trying to incorporate this in will be hell. i have a hard time letting people see what i’m really thinking and how i’m really feeling…it puts me in a vulnerable spot and i know it doesn’t seem this way with how i was persuaded to take the SAT, but i consider myself a strong person (except being too compassionate and emotionally invested (?)) and i hate putting myself in a position where i can get hurt or be judged. i guess that’s why i posted this thread anonymously, 7 months after the incident…in_denial…kind of inspired me.</p>
<p>laserbase: i wish i knew, but i’m kind of glad i don’t…i might want to too haha. i’m kidding. i’m a total human rights activist, i wouldn’t kill them. i would just wonder why they hated me so much, even if they did it because they don’t like the other girl (i later found out she isn’t very popular because of her self-pity and gossipy nature). </p>
<p>skatj: i agree. i do apologize for what i did because it was egrigeous. however, there are hundreds of others who have cheated and have not been caught. so, it would be nice not to have the frustration for all those people’s actions dumped on me. btw, she was NOT applying to a top tier university, just one i think and honestly, even the SAT score wouldn’t have made up for her other stats…so she was not any competition for anyone on CC.</p>
<p>the other girl was not really penalized. any respect she lost…was already lost before the incident i’ve heard. </p>
<p>also, there was one thing i was frustrated about with the entire situation. when i was called up to the office, i was told by an ETS representative and the head testing coordinator at my school that it’s good i didn’t cheat on an AP. APs = money since they can give students credit for college. they claimed my situation would have been sooo much worse if i had. the odd thing is, last year, a kid in my grade was caught looking at his neighbor’s test in an AP exam last year. my school said they would cancel his score, but didn’t and since he had only finished the MC, he recieved a 2. however, he didn’t recieve any consequences and as far as i’m concerned, my school will not report his incident when he applies. thus, i don’t understand why i’m penalized so heavily compared to him if AP cheating is considered worse (according to ETS as well). i guess it has to do with the fact that ETS/CB alreadys knows about my incident whereas his was never reported…?</p>
No, she didn’t get paid. She felt sympathetic for the other girl, that’s all. </p>
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