My heart goes out to you!!! Where are your parents in this? Are they helpful? If so, go give them a hug and ask for their help in getting the help you need! ASAP!! Please get help. Once your mental health is improved in a few weeks, months or semesters, you can assess your situation, find a new school or whatever situation works best for you. I would suggest calling your Dean of Students and finding out about a medical leave. That way, they will hold your spot and you will be in good standing. You can return or transfer later. Start gathering information today so you can start making decisions. I will be thinking of you. Now go take care of yourself!